Glorious

I've been exceptionally tired today. The kind of tired where you have to wonder if it's the beginning of an illness. I am normally ok once I get up and get going, even if I feel really tired when I wake up. But, today I couldn't shake the exhaustion. I don't really get naps these days, but I didn't sleep much last night. Or the night before. Maybe even the night before. So, I knew I needed some rest. With Will in his bassinet in my room and Walker set up at the end of the couch watching Tom & Jerry on my laptop, I snuggled up under the world's most comfortable (no really, it is...) and ugliest blanket to get some serious snoozing on. But, as normalcy would have it, things just didn't go Mommy's way. :) Will kept spitting his paci and wanting me to put it back in. It's a little game he play, I'm starting to think...and Walker wanted this and that.

I brought Will in beside me and tucked my arm under him, our cheeks touching. He instantly went to sleep. I told Walker he could not have anything until I woke up...fully aware that after I fell asleep, he'd probably go get something out of the fridge. And honestly, at that point I was ok with it... :) I woke up to the sucking noise and realized it wasn't Will, so I peeked over and saw Walker sitting straight up on the couch sound asleep. Squiggling out from under Will an rattling his sleep, I got Walker's "mommy pillow" which is the pillow he inherited from me. It apparently smells like me. I nudged him down on it hoping he'd stay asleep. He did. It was glorious. I was all ready to crawl back into my rightful and well-deserved place under the world's most comfortable blanket beside the world's most adorable baby and toe to toe with the world's most precious three year old. Then it hit me. If i stir them, they will wake. What to do, what to do? I couldn't very well go sleep somewhere else. Could I? NO! I hardly entertained the idea for even a second...or two. :) Considering my precious infant was now sleeping on a PILLOW on the COUCH without me...I knew sleep was no longer an option. He must be watched like a hawk if I were to let him sleep in this totally dangerous if left unattended position. So, here I sit...right beside them. Watching them both sleep. Nap would have been glorious...but this is glorious-est (yes i know that's not a word...). My two babies, toe to toe...with a little space in between maybe...sleeping peacefully. So, I'll go without sleep again because this is better.

The end.