To blog or not to blog...

I don't know that I've ever gone a month without updating my blog.  If I am being truthful, which I always am on my blog :), then I am strongly considering bringing this blog to a close.  I have enjoyed every second of documenting our lives on here, and having a record of things that the boys were doing at certain points of their lives.  Walker especially since I've done this blog since before he was even conceived.  I am so glad that I have so much to look back on and remember.  I have forgotten so many small details about Walker's younger years that I always cherish remembering when I read back over my blog.  I am so thankful for the time I have been able to invest into doing that.  However, I have been feeling more and more lately like it has just run it's course.  I have guilty emotions of possibly not journaling Will's younger years the way I have Walker, but at this point I am trying to decide whether continuing to write is something I really want to do.  But, if I am being honest again (which, by the way I am always am on my blog) :) then I just don't have the time, desire, "daily jotted notes", or short term memory storage space I had with Walker...and I have already not chronicled Will's life and development the way I had Walker's every move at this point.  So, I think I am (maybe) going to choose to throw second child mom guilt aside (which I am getting better and better at on a daily basis) and chalk this decision up to just desiring to BE more.  Be with my family, be a good mom, be a good wife, be in the Spirit and His Word, be in the moment, be on the couch, be in a good book, be more available to help others the way people help us, be in a nice, long bubble bath, be better attentive to my own self (i.e. actually shaving my legs from time to time), be in bed earlier and sometimes just BE.  Not that the blog really distracts me from those things or takes up too much of my time, but there was a time when it was therapy of sorts to me.  When my fingers could hit the keyboard and I could feel the stress just oozing out of me with every key stroke.  I just don't feel that way now.  I think about updating the blog and I think about how I have already forgotten so much of what happened since my last update, how I don't take near the pictures I did before, and how it absolutely just wears me slap out to think about sitting down to type an update on my boys.  I also think about how sometimes I'd just rather live a quiet life.  It seems I have changed so much in that sense with a second child.  I'd much rather be laughing with my husband about the activities of the evening, discussing in amazement how we actually survived another evening, relishing in the precious Bible time and discussion we have with Walker each night, and praying over those sweet blessings from God with my spare time.

So, it's possible (maybe) the next couple of posts will be my last.  Or maybe just the beginning of a much less frequently updated blog.  We'll see.