Wow. I have had the itching to write! I really don’t even have anything major to say, but writing makes me feel alive! I haven’t had much time for blogging, especially since I went back to work. I do want to make sure to chart Will’s life and development the way I did Walker’s though, and so I must press on! Walker’s pretty entertaining these days as well, so I want to make sure and jot down some of my favorite memories. That kid is just a mess! (in a good way, of course…)
So…I am going to try to recap our life over the past month that I’ve been MIA on the blog front. I am sure I’ll leave out a lot, but I will at least attempt.
Since Walker’s the oldest, we will start with him. Walker is a feisty little spit-fire. He is so much like me that I almost can’t handle him sometimes. :) I’ve just recently started to notice how much he is like me, and my mom confirms that he is a lot like I was as a child. He moves from one thing to another…can’t stay with one activity for more than about 5 minutes at a time. Seriously. About the only time he’s still for more than just a few minutes is if he’s playing in dirt or mud or watching either Toy Story 2, 3, Max and Ruby or Tom & Jerry. I can feel myself start to get aggravated when I drag all the paints out, or get the playdough down only to have him “done” a few minutes after all the work is complete. Then I notice myself picking up toys in the livingroom, “Oh hey…there’s a dish on the end table, I’ll take it to the kitchen…” and then there I am loading the dishwasher or sweeping crumbs off the floor and the livingroom is still in complete disarray. He comes by it honestly. I can’t sit still. Neither can he. :)
I have never been one to act as if life is perfect when it’s not. I like to be real…an old, but great friend told me recently that she has always appreciated how real I am about life and life with kids…that it really helps her and encourages her. So, that in and of itself makes it worth it when after the moment has passed I may feel I’ve shared too much of my inner self. I am just not going to put on a show. What you see is what you get with me, and I wear my feelings & emotions (though sometimes regretfully) on my shoulder…face…mouth…you name it! All that to say that we’ve had a rough little stint with our precious first born up until recently. The last few weeks of my maternity leave were less than ideal and Walker and I were really “struggling” to enjoy one another. Walker was dealing, I think, with some insecurity and jealously related to Will. I was dealing with, in large part, being frustrated with myself on how impatient I had been with Walker, feeling a little down in the dumps in general (probably related to hormonal changes) and just a general lack of closeness in my relationship with God. Which, by the way, affects EVERYTHING in my life.
Walker and I butted heads so much the last few weeks of my leave that I was honestly ready to come back to work. I’d go to bed each night promising to start fresh and energetic with Walker the next morning, but by 9:00 the next morning, I’d probably already totally lost my patience with him about 3-4 times. He was really intentionally challenging me and acting out. He needed attention. I wanted to give it to him, but I was so annoyed by how he was acting…the constant whininess, the clinginess, etc that I couldn’t bring myself to follow through with my promise to start over…and so you have it, an endless and ugly cycle.
But, as God promises He will do…He provided “rest” for me and for Walker…he restored my soul…he renewed my love for my child in an amazing way…and He taught me an incredible lesson on unconditional love and how much He loves us and models that love for us to follow.
These days, Walker is back to his “old” self…fun loving, sensitive, caring and a tiny bit of a challenge most days because he’s a boy…and he’s ALL boy…and he’s a mess. But, I enjoy him so much. And I thank God that He brought me out of the throes of a dry and weary land and gave me water to drink. I am so thankful He provides for us all the things we need and disciplines us when we need it. It reminds me that one day our discipline will pay off in Walker’s life…we discipline because we love him, just as God disciplines us because He loves us. It’s what you do. It’s what you have to do…
Will is just growing by leaps and bounds. Since he is our last baby, this is bittersweet. I am enjoying seeing him go through each new stage…but my heart is sad. Not sad because I won’t have another baby, but sad because the baby I have is growing and changing wayyy too fast for me!
He is precious in every way. He’s a smiler and those who are around him a lot will attest to it. He is rarely not smiling. He smiles at everyone. If he doesn’t smile at you, you can pretty much guarantee he doesn’t like you. (just kidding!) All you have to do is look his way and he will flash his adorably handsome grin at you. It will melt your heart. I promise. Will never fusses. The only exception is if I am making him do tummy time longer than he’d like or if his reflux is acting up…which it does from time to time, but not often. He’s a charmer and a little flirt for sure.
We had his two month appointment earlier in the month. He was 12.2 lbs and 23.5 inches long. His fat rolls are adorable. Walker was a long and lean baby and Will is long and fat. LOVE IT. He is so cute when naked because he has rolls that his diaper hides when he’s partially dressed.
While Walker is like Mommy, Will is just like Daddy. He is so laid back, never gets worked up about anything…content to just “be…” We can all stand to be a little more like Will and Daddy.
He likes talking to and grinning at his toys. He particularly likes his octopus and the animals that hang down on his swing.
He adores Walker. He will practically break his neck trying to find him when he hears his voice. He laughs out loud at Walker more than he does anything else…and he is so very interested in anything Walker is doing! Walker is definitely his favorite and Walker is not shy about telling you that either!
Will rolled from tummy to back this week. At just two months. :) It was an accidental thing at first, but then he realized he could do it and he did it over and over time and again. He is trying SO hard to roll from back to front. He gets almost all the way over, but he can’t get out from under the shoulder closest to the ground, so he gets stuck. Then he gets mad…which makes him try harder. He’s so close. Won’t be long now, I don’t think.
We are doing well…we’ve settled into life as a family of four, and have resumed all our usual traditions and habits. We have been out to dinner just the four of us a few times now. We’ve discovered when Will is with us, Walker behaves better. Hmmm… For now, life is great. Can’t wait to see what the future holds…SO excited about Cliff & I having the summer off with our babies!!
Pictures soon!!
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